It catches me unguarded
Often when I’m otherwise preoccupied
It plays out in my head
Somehow, I can never grasp it until it’s too late. It’s over.
Once it’s made itself clear to me, however,
I’m left feeling unsettled.
My prior engagement has taken the backseat and has no place in my brain
I’m completely overwhelmed by feelings of horror and anxiety.
While I try to make sense of it,
The occasional guilt pays frequent visits.
How could I possibly have thought that?
Does this have to become reality?
I could list them out for you,
But I’ll spare you the unpleasantness.
It’s so much more than even I can take
The unconscious mind sure does a haunted place make.